V For Vendetta

Every time I went to Christian church I couldn't help, but feel guilty. Was I going because I wanted to or was it because was I conforming to what all white kids were doing on Sunday? Not only was I practicing one religion, but I was also practicing Taoism at home. My whole life I've been questioning my religion which isn't hard having been raised in cities that contained people who believed in God and only God.

I started going to church when my friends told me that they went to church on Sundays and as a kid I wanted to fit in so I started to go to as well. Even though I thought church was boring I really went because they had parties every Sunday. My parents were okay with it because I was just a kid and didn't know any better. I remember going to church and how I would look around and not help, but wonder why I we were the only Asians at this church. It took me a few years before I learned that in the bible it said that you can't worship any other god, but this one. Since then I never went back to church

From what I remember my family and I have always been Taoist. My grandpa is a shaman and as child he studied to be a shaman. He grew up believing what he studied and it would be hard to change his mind on something that he spent his whole life doing. He is the only reason why my family has stuck to this religion even if we are all skeptical. When we were sick he would find out what caused us to be sick and it's not a diagnose people are used to. He would find out if a spirit has caused us to be ill and if we remain sick he would perform a spiritual ceremony. By doing all these ceremonies it has cost so much money and even though he performed these ceremonies I always went to the doctors too so that always played back my mind.

I've been raised in cities that the major race is white and it has effected my views on religion up until now. People may not admit it, but religion always comes up in school