Abigail's Diary

Abigails Diary

Rationale

As so it seems, my intentions, aim, objective and purpose in the entries are to predominantly let Abigail William’s emotions take full control over her diary entries. Especially love, hatred and fear are the ones i wanted to show since these are the main elements causing panic and ruckus in the Salem. Although i am not trying to reveal any Abigail's secrets but i just want to show how her relationship with John Proctor really is. I wanted her to compare herself with Elizabeth Proctor with hate and criticise, diss and belittle her. Basically she will be made up of love, hatred, anger and fear.

Entry #1 Date: 9th September of 1962 (girls dancing in the forest)

The girls and I were out in the forest during midnight. Tituba (my uncle’s slave) was performing the forbidden act of witchcraft following my order. All of made our wishes hoping it would appear in our lives, including me, I profoundly wished for my dear love John Proctor to leave his other and be by my side for eternal, I may sound foolish little girl but i am not girl everyone sees me, I may be 12 year old but my intellect is much more older, old enough to love John Proctor. I love this man so much that I have to resort to witchery for him to notice how absurd i am to do this for him, to notice how far I am capable of compared to the old woman Elizabeth. The woman who scorned me, scarred me, my name and reputation in the town is dying because of this worthless being somehow knew the relationship between my dear love. What does he see in her and not in me, she will only be how she wants to be but i can be and do more than her, i can be in any form of his wish, i can be any type of person to make him happy. I do not care how low i have gone, how many morals i have broken but i only could write this much, i can hear someone coming.

Entry #2 Date: 13th September of 1962 (the accusation of Elizabeth Proctor)

That’s it! I had enough of it, I cannot this take this anymore, i cannot bear how that wrinkled old woman stands by his side while i watch and still gets in my way between me and John. If she is the only one who blocks my paths between me and my love, then so be it, she must be gone, taken out out of this existence. I was up all night making the poppet worked so hard almost felt impossible but i would do anything for my love. After finishing

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